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Respite

The lake is dark and calm with a small breeze by the time they arrive at its shores. The stars above reflect perfectly in the still waters before them, and a small copse of trees lines one side, starting on their side of the river and jumping along the other side.

Chris takes a moment to re-prepare the spell he hadn't been able to cast in five years and gestures vaguely to the area around them as a suggestion for what the others can do. Gathering in the forest, sitting on a nearby over-turned log, it didn't matter to him. What he needed was an hour without interruption.

He settles down on the ground and presses his hands together as he closes his eyes to focus on the image in his mind. Within minutes, the white, shimmering outline of a large building forms in thin air. The gentle glow of its light barely spreads from the growing structure.

As promised, it takes the full hour before the slowly filling-in form is complete and finishes with a jaunty, echoing click.

Chris takes a breath, now sitting in front of the stoop that looks annoyingly like the one he'd passed earlier in the night, and gets back onto stiff legs as the glow fades away, leaving smooth, but otherwise unremarkable, white stone behind.

"Here we are. Home for the next however long we need. I'll start working on food and water next." Once they're inside, anyway, which is why he takes back his things from where he'd left them and leads them into the temple, marked only with the carving of ravens on the black wood of the double doors.

Inside is something just shy of opulence. The same polished white stone makes the walls, though black and gold veins course through the marble. The floor is the inverse, a black stone with white, shimmering speckles like a night sky if looked at for long enough. A single window faced East high up on the wall. The temple was alight with sconces at regular intervals along the walls, illuminating an open area that held all the offerings of comfort Chris could think of.

A large hot-springs-like bath, complete with a miniature waterfall, took up the left side of the room and ran into a smaller, similar bath at dog-height. Next to it, covered by a retractable screen, was a shower. Along the back wall, a raven's head emblazoned the white wall in black and watched out over a set of tables, chairs, and a couple of sofas. The majority of the center was clear for walking, but the right edge and right side of the room held a deeply inset pit of pillows, cushions, and blankets in various soft (black and purple) fabrics.

Finally, in the middle of the right-hand wall, there were two closed doors that, when inspected, revealed one room with a large, soft chair and rug, while the other room was made of nothing but stone with jars, pitchers, and plates on shelves along two walls and a cork wall perfect for catching daggers on the other side.

"I hope it works for everyone. I didn't...I didn't make separate bedrooms this time. I didn't figure we would need them tonight."

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Chris shoots Wolfe a mixed look of sympathy and worry but doesn’t press when he heads back out into the main area.

He sets his tea by the pit and heads over to sort out Wolfe’s clothing. His pants are hung over the shower screen and his smalls gathered to hang slightly by the table. Chris sets the other shirts nearby, but puts the stupid howling wolf shirt on top.

“We will.” He assures her that first and foremost. “When we’ve both slept and ate. Maybe tomorrow or day after. I don’t want to rush anything either…other than needing a few things, we aren’t in much of a hurry.”

He sighs and turns to her properly.

“For now…it’s ok to focus on yourself and what you need. Please know I want that for you too…I need that for you.”

Which is part of why he’s not going to go collect Jon yet even though he wants to. He also needs to be patient. Keep busy.

"Chris..." She reaches for one of his hands with a gentle smile. "I'm still working out what I need. Having all of you here is the most important thing, sleep is next. And I can have that because you're all here." There's so much to be done, but it all waits for these two things. Sleep will help her regain her strength and pull herself together, but it's the people around her now, her new family, that will make it possible to not only survive but live.

"I promise you, I want nothing more tonight than to collapse into cuddle pile with our mage for as long as you're willing. And then I'm going to hold him so tight he'll have to peel me off in the morning." She chuckles softly and kisses the back of his hand. "I'll be all right, and I have you to thank for that. You brought us here, made us this temple, and helped me see what I was too stuck in my grief. I wouldn't be where I am without you, and I'm going to be certain we make it through this together. We take care of each other now, cleric, as we're able. Tonight you have me, and tomorrow... we'll see what comes."

She takes his hand and again, it focuses his attention from everything around them down to just her. To her earnest words that tug at his heart. The others would have loved her. Loved Wolfe…maybe even Jon, with time.

His eyes sting and he blinks the feeling away and brings her fingers to his lips.

She was right about one thing: they’re this far. Maybe she wouldn’t be his master rogue, Wolfe his lord of hounds, nor Jon his historian and archivist…but instead they’re just them. And he’s just him. Whoever that is.

“I hear you.” It comes out more rough than he intends, more wet, but he squeezes her fingers and turns to…do something. Anything but trail down that path of thought.

But gods, they would have loved his people.

He hears her, but it's too much right now. She understands all too well, and so she won't press. She leans up to kiss his cheek again, then sets aside her tea so she can drag her fingers down the outside of his arm from shoulder to elbow. Rather than try to find more words to reassure him, she falls back one what she knows will always help when they find their footing together for even a moment.

"I love you." She raises herself up to the balls of her feet to press her forehead to his. "I love you, and I promise that you are enough. You are what we need." Now and always, and she'll tell him every day for the rest of their lives if that's what he needs to rest easier at night.

About that time, Wolfe steps out of the wreck room and closes the door behind him quietly. He seems a bit more relaxed, if sheepish, as he joins them with tea in hand. He's also gratified to see his two loves getting along, as evidenced by his broad smile when he sees them so close.

"Did you want to get Jon so we can all get some sleep?" Wolfe asks, assuming his friend has disappeared into the other room for privacy when he doesn't see Jon out in the common area. Thinking Chris would probably want to do that, Wolfe grabs the shirt from the top of the pile and pulls it on. He keeps the blanket around his waist, though; there's no way his pants or small clothes are dry yet.

"We can get settled in the meantime," he directs at Amelia, deciding now definitively that he's too tired for food and just wants the weight of the people he loves on him before he goes to sleep. Someday he'll be hungry again. Probably in the morning.

Her words ease some things and share in others, but it’s overall helpful to hear. Helpful enough he sets the rest aside for now.

He couldn’t outrun the tears forever, but he could try his damndest until they caught him.

His hand finds a place at Amelia’s hip while she speaks assurances and soothing things to him and he gives her a squeeze, a quiet thank you as Wolfe steps out to return to them, though he adds a kiss to the corner of her mouth before pulling away.

“Yeah. Settle in, we’ll take our space around you.”

The pit was plenty big enough and piled still with several pillows and blankets for maximum comfort, he didn’t doubt the least they could do tonight would be sleep.

Chris heads for the other room, pauses outside to listen a moment, but then heads inside and closes the door behind him. He wasn’t exactly sure what state he’d find Jon in, but privacy would likely be appreciated regardless.

When Chris enters, he'll hear a man's voice. If his memory serves, he'll recognize Rafa's accent. "...chambers. I had to be escorted. I had never seen the inside of the castle, not like this. It was so...opulent, Jon. Full of gold, and jewels, and silks and velvets..." The recording continues as he describes being transformed into a vampire and being assaulted by his sire.

On the sofa, Jon has pulled up his sleeve and is writing names on his left hand and arm wherever there's room around his tattoos. He's breathing heavily, his eyes are fixed in the middle distance and glowing an eerie green. Chris' arrival garners no immediate reaction. Jon is lost in what he's doing.

The words on his arm are more names, and he digging into his skin to write them, going over them again and again, to ingrain them there and in his mind. The book hadn't been enough. What if that's taken away? He'd needed to put them somewhere that couldn't be removed.

Edited 2025-10-12 21:31 (UTC)

A smile starts to form when Chris kisses her and grows full when she turns to Wolfe, dressed in that ridiculous shirt of his and with his mug in hand. A shirt he's worn dozens of times and carefully washed and dried to keep it in good condition. A mug he insisted on using even when she had others that better held the heat of his tea or coffee. The way he looks between these two things tugs at 'normal' in her mind and she clings to it; something grounding while the rest of her life is still in upheaval. Even if he does look a little silly with a blanket tied around his waist.

"You in the center of us?" she asks, taking his free hand in hers as they step over to the pit. She pauses at the edge to sit down with her tea. Best to finish it now before taking off her knives and laying down. "I don't think Jon will want to hold your hand or curl against you, but I know he's missed you too. Being close to missed friends is helpful when you suddenly have them back."

"I'd put my arm around him if I thought it wouldn't get me bitten," Wolfe jokes, taking a swallow to tea. "But no, I figured it would be me between you and Chris and Jon on Chris' other side, if he can sleep at all. He doesn't always."

It seems a little odd speaking to Amelia about Jon's personal habits, but she'll learn them eventually since they're going to be staying together for the foreseeable future. That thought is a happy one, the idea of a house of their own, maybe with a garden for vegetables...

Thats getting a little ahead of things, but its nice to dream again.

"Come on, Love. Let's see how comfortable Chris has made these pillow pits."

As it turns out, extremely comfortable, some of the pillows acting like they're stuffed with that memory foam stuff from Duplicity and some very soft feathers, and all the perfect temperature. The bed itself is firm enough for sleep but soft enough to practically sink into, and Wolfe does so gladly and with an appreciative groan after setting his tea aside.

"If all the Raven Queen's temples have nests like this, I might convert."

He'd met the man once, nearly five years ago now, when Lux had wanted Chris to meet his dominant in a more official capacity, for how often he was over at the incubus' house. He suspected Lux might have even had some designs in the back of his head for involving Chris in some more intimate interactions between the three...at least before Lux had vanished barely a week later. Not his first loss, but one of the bigger ones. He'd always thought it ridiculous that someone so old, the progenitor of lust on his own world, would claim to love something so transient and nothing as Chris. Copy as he'd been, now Chris wished he'd let himself believe him a little more.

The thought is quick, brief, and he shakes it from his head as his focus narrows to Jon's vicious scrawling on his own skin.

"Jon. Stop."

Two strides, and his hands reach out to clutch at Jon's hand and arm in a bid to separate them. A bubble of Silence falls over the room instead of bothering to stop the tape.

If he can, he pries the pen from his partner's hand to let it drop to the floor, but even if he must only curl his fingers over the pen and the tip, he bodily pushes into Jon's space to bear his weight down against his love in a way he hopes is grounding as he presses their foreheads together.

He won't be able to say anything or hear anything, but neither would Jon, and maybe that would help. Just for a moment. For a moment, no one had to hear Jonathan Sims breaking.

Chris' words are like a siren blaring from above. Jon freezes for a split second, knowing he's made a mistake. He hadn't meant to let things get this far, hadn't meant to let the cleric see this. He has enough problems as it is with Amelia breaking down, Wolfe a mess, Chris himself having his whole world shattered on so many levels. None of them are meant to see. And there's some perverse pleasure in that, in having the other man Know him, See him, having the secrets he'd been meaning to keep ripped away and exposed like a rotten wound. He can feel the Ceaseless Watcher in the back of his mind, knowing his shame and pushing some sense of satisfaction into him with it.

For as still as he is, Jon's grip isn't particularly strong. Chris knocks the pen from his hand, presses him back and down and over him, and Rafa's voice is gone. Everyone is gone. Martin. His Martin, twice over. His Morrigan. His Alessandro. Lyall, Garrett, Daphne, Anya, Rafa, Jamie, on and on and on, his list of names so much longer than his arms could hold. They're the last repository for every single off-worlder in the LIES program. They are the only people who will ever remember them. Even if LIES does this again, if their abomination finds another crop, they'll wipe out everything about the ones before.

How many times have they done this? How many stories have been lost? Left a complete and utter mystery.

He hates to cry, despises being so weak, but Chris is there and the silence beckons. The first few tears slip out against his will, and as soon as they do, the dam breaks. Jon curls his hands into Chris' shirt, the grip too hard, too much. This is what Amelia keeps doing as she breaks, thinking she's too much, but she has Wolfe and Chris both. He knows Chris will think he's the only one who can handle this. And he's going to feel like he has to handle it tonight.

The urge to push his boyfriend away, to curl up wars with the desire to keep him close and sob into the quiet where no one can hear him.

The reaction to the feel of the pillows is promising. Amelia quickly finishes her tea, trying not to chuckle too much at the way Wolfe practically melts into the downy comfort. It's hard to resist when it's such a Wolfe thing to do.

"I'll remind you said this tomorrow morning." She smiles down at him, waiting until his eyes are closed to shed her knives. She shouldn't hold back, but it's hard to ignore the reflex. They'll work on that another day. With those set aside, she slides down to join him, sighing in relief at how good it feels to fall into any kind of bed after the hell of a day she's been through. Her body doesn't ache much after the bath, but she's still exhausted.

Once she's fully down, she cuddles into Wolfe's side and wraps an arm across his chest as far as she can reach. "This is nice. Better for having you in here with me." Another sigh as she lets her eyes fall closed. "I've missed falling asleep with you at my side."

"You should. I'm going to have to start acclimating anyway," he replies as he fits his arm around her back, relaxing all the more just for having her beside him. This, at least, feels normal.

He doesn't expect Amelia to abandon what faith she has from home; she doesn't need to if she's not going to be written into the Weave as he and Jon need to be to keep themselves as they are. If she doesn't, Wolfe imagines the gods of her world will take her then, and...

No, that's not right. The deity present at all of their creation is the god of Duplicity, and fuck if any of them want to figure out what that afterlife is. Would that be her fate? She has no magic to weave and she has no previous connection to a God as Chris does...

"You should too. Choose a god, I mean. Chris says those of no faith here go somewhere awful. I don't want that for you." Now that the threat of death is again something to consider, especially with how they'll likely be earning a living.

In the silence of the room, Jon's pain can't be heard by either of them, but it's felt. Chris can feel it in the grip of his hands and the way his smaller frame quakes in Chris's hold and how his tears burn hot and cool quickly against the cleric's neck when he pulls his partner more into his chest and the safe curl of his arms.

His own eyes prick and sting out of sympathy. Empathy. They've lost too much and all at once, it's too cruel. Especially when they have the comfort and safety to actually face it.

At least, in Duplicity, there was almost always something else demanding part of their attention. There was always something else they had to keep moving for. Here, on the banks of a little-known lake in a small region, no one demanded anything of them. Time stood still. It was the unkindness of antiseptic on a wound.

He keeps his focus on his spell and how his hands stroke along Jon's back and his hair. His lips press small kisses where they happen to fall, but he makes no move to interrupt him or slow the storm or even try to offer kind words. There was nothing he could say that would feel right enough. Yet in the stillness where their words couldn't be heard and he couldn't interrupt him, he says "I love you" and "I'm sorry" to the quiet and hungry room.

It takes a minute or two for the worst of the sobs to pass, for the tidal wave of emotion to recede. Jon can feel the tears still stinging his eyes, the phlegm clogging his throat, the sense of humiliation that he'd let himself spiral like this when he'd assured Chris that he wouldn't. No wonder the cleric hardly trusts him to be on his own sometimes. Gradually, his tears dry up and he's able to swallow down the worst of everything. There's an unfortunate amount of snot and salt decorating Chris' shirt that they can't simply prestidigitate away, but maybe he can... pretend to spill tea on him? Would that be better as a lie for Wolfe and Amelia? The thought that they would know about this is far worse than Chris' ken.

It's a few minutes more before he's matching his breath to Chris', mirroring, and a another one before he finally pulls back enough to look up at the other man.

'I have to remember them,' he tries to say, lips moving silently. Jon shakes his head a moment, then tries for something simpler to articulate as a concept, if not as words to read by the lips. He lifts a trembling hand to cup Chris' face. 'Please... just cry, too?' At least he wouldn't be alone in the humiliation.

She huffs an amused breath against him. "Have to meet one before I do that. Gods don't exist where I'm from." Or, rather, where her original is from. Luckily for everyone, the exhaustion is weighing heavily enough on her that the thought doesn't have a chance to fully form in her mind. Whatever gods may or may not exist in that world, Amelia's never known them and never believed they existed. There's no one to call her to that plane, as far as she understands.

"I need to see to believe. Maybe I'll pick whoever helps us most to get written into the Weave." A concept she still only vaguely comprehends. It's important and will tie Wolfe and Jon to this plane, and right now that's enough for her. Some other day she'll ask more questions to better understand what's involved and if she needs to be threaded in too.

One of her shoulders rolls in a shrug as she cracks an eye open to look up at Wolfe. "I can always pick whoever you follow. Heard plenty of stories of gods liking blind followers. Why not one blinded by love?" That'll be enough, right? If it's not... dreams, she'll figure it out later because she's so much closer to sleep than she thought she would be when they stepped into the temple.

A chuckle escapes Wolfe at that, something sleepy and more relaxed than he thought he could get right now. He tries to fight it at least until Chris and Jon return.

"I see no problem with that," he concedes, kissing the top of her head. "Get some rest, now. It's been one of the longest days I can remember."

Its strange to think how he started the day versus how its ending. From a prisoner to freer than hes ever been in his life, from alone and losing hope to surrounded by loved ones and looking forward to their future. Its a big change, but an exhausting one.

The rattle of a collar sounds as Patience hops down into the pit as well. She turns around twice and lays herself across both Amelia and Wolfe's legs, almost daring them to get up before resting her large head down on her paws. Chuckling again, Wolfe cranes his neck to spot Cookie snoring away under the table, only her back legs and tail visible among the furniture.

"I hope you didn't intend to get up again."

He's not much for reading lips, even ones he knows so well, but 'remember' is the thing that catches his eye. The second part he understands all too well, and it yanks at him. Wolfe and Amelia had been trying to get him to break down too, and now Jon...he knows he needs to. If he doesn't now, it'll sneak up on him at a worse time. When the remembering would overwhelm the present. It was the honor and duty of the living to carry the lost...no, the dead. They weren't lost, sent home, missing, vanished, they were dead.

His throat fills with thorns again and he shakes his head. "I can't."
He's not even sure why he can't anymore. All of the reasons he might cling to run from him like sand between his fingers.

Crais would have told him he was being an idiot. Did he rail and fight against a second death so much more ignominious than the first? Martin would have been gentle, always so gentle when he smiled and blushed and looked at Chris like he kept waiting for the punchline on why Chris even wanted him. On second thought, he would have told him not to be so stubborn too...it makes him choke on the thorns in his throat. Did he die thinking they'd abandoned him? Left him to his Lonely end and the fears trapped in his head?

Chris' vision blurs, and he presses his forehead to Jon's while he fights not to let his grip turn to claws.

Did Jacob die knowing he'd never see his kids again? Did he die knowing they'd never actually been his kids? That the other life where he and Chris had quiet morning coffee and sunshine and vows was exactly as real as he'd been?

Caleb, Nate, Oliver, Nick, they would have died fighting for a world they couldn't save, a world they'd never broken in the first place, and one they never got to see again. Rosita, Stephen, Daphne, Lux, Diane, Katherine...fuck, Festival-

He sobs into the silence, the people who had made him an unstoppable line of faces in his mind's eye. He wasn't the Chris that existed here on this plane because that Chris hadn't known them, didn't carry them, and hadn't grown from them. He had and it made him just as important as anyone else with his face here. He was better because of them...and the least he could do was cry for them.

Amnos.

He hadn't thought of it for seeing his friend only a few hours ago alive and well, but that hadn't been the one in the city with him. His best friend had died knowing he'd never see his wife and kids again.

He can't keep himself upright at the thought; he crumples into Jon's chest with a silent scream of anger and grief. They'd deserved better than that. He should have done more.

Jon wraps his arms around the cleric, hugging fiercely and sinking fingers into his hair to grip and twist. He knows pain is grounding for Chris, much as the Archivist hates hurting him. This is necessary. All of this grief. Chris has lost his friends in Duplicity and his family here. He’s a man stuck behind a pane of glass, having to watch someone else live the life and dreams, the struggles and triumphs that he thought he was going to. If this were Jon’s world, he can only imagine the Chris, Wolfe, and Amelia all being shunted off to personal hells if the Stranger’s making, having to watch some other thing that isn’t them have what they were striving to reach.

While he can hear it, he feels Chris’ scream, and his fears and anguish come through at full volume. All of those names are in the book already. Jacob’s is somewhere near his elbow. He’d known that was an important one for Chris, much like Aloise for Amelia and Anders for Wolfe. They’re names that need to be remembered. But ‘Amnos’ is one he needs to add.

He holds Chris as he cries, pulling him onto the sofa as he lays back and down to make it easier. Jon lets him go for as long as he needs to, keeping a steady rhythm of harder twists in Chris’ curls to remind him of where he is and that Jon, at least, is here and real.

Edited (Too many ‘he’s) 2025-10-13 04:31 (UTC)

He clings tight to his Archivist, his Jon, as his thoughts jump from the people he's lost to the people they've all lost, to the people here who he could never tell this to, who would never know. Why should they? For his own satisfaction? Validation that this hurt? They didn't need this; it wasn't their responsibility. He wasn't their responsibility...and they weren't his. Only the people here and the people they now carried were.

Chris's tear-blurred gaze is stuck on the pattern of the couch where he's lying with Jon. It seems abstract at first glance, but staring at it with his thoughts chaos and the sparks of pain that offer bright flashes of clarity in the storm, it occurs to him: it's one of Amelia's embroidery designs. Every detail of this place comes from his mind, his imagination, and he can't remember putting that design on this couch, but some part of his thoughts must have done it. It's such a little thing, but incongruously feels huge in the moment. She's part of him in even the smallest of details, just as Jon and Wolfe are. Just as they all are.

So long as they continue to survive, so will those they've lost. They wouldn't be forgotten.

Fresh tears spill from him, but they're calmer, quieter. He sniff and shudders, but the clouds clear more than they have all day, and finally the spell falls.

"I'm..." he stops himself from apologizing. He doesn't want Jon's; why should he offer his own? Instead, he softly offers: "Thank you."

Jon’s tugging softens with Chris’ tears. By the time the spell drops, he’s stroking through his boyfriend’s hair. He’s grateful Chris speaks first as he has no idea what to say.

“Hell of a thing to say to someone when you walked in and knocked a pen out of their hand.” His tone is as light as he can manage through the thickness that still plagues his throat. “Thank you. I didn’t mean for it to go that far. I just… I’m scared of losing them. Forgetting them somehow. If the gods here take the Eye away… what if it takes my memories as a punishment? I don’t want to… I thought if I wrote them down…”

His scalp tingles and aches in a way that helps him keep his breath and work on calming down...and the soothing feeling of being pet is half just nice on its own and half habit that has him breathing evenly in no time.

"Well I wasn't going to apologize for doing that...I didn't want you to hurt yourself. And we'll make sure they're remembered." He can't promise Jon will remember, he can't promise anything about the Eye...but they could do better than scrawling on skin.

He sits up enough to put a hand on Jon's arm. "Let's make sure these are all on paper...and then we're going to wash this off...though we can wait until the morning, if you'd like. I think we can do our loved ones better than this. Find some way to permanently honor them and get a proper, dedicated book for filling with everything we remember of the people we want to hold onto. The people worth holding onto." He traces his thumb absently over Dorian's name but doesn't press any more than that.

"You don't have to bear all of them and their stories alone...in fact, I'd be hurt if you tried...those who were important to both of us belong to both of us...alright?"

Jon smirks for a moment, lips twitching up at the rejoinder. He's always loved this about the other man, that they can find some humor in the misery... especially misery of his own making. When Chris sits up, Jon stays where he is, looking up at his boyfriend with a hooded gaze, letting his arms fall to the sides. He knows he's probably supremely unattractive in this moment, face splotchy from crying, eyes red-rimmed... mostly because Chris is suffering the same afflictions.

"They're all in the book you gave me, I was just- I guess I was worried about... someone taking it away?" Saying it aloud, it sounds stupid, paranoid. "Sorry. I just keep expecting something terrible to happen." More terrible than everyone they knew in Duplicity dying and Chris discovering he has a double. "Something to snatch us back or take what things we have." He sighs and runs his fingers along Chris' arm.

"But finding something better than my skin is- It's a good idea. There's only so much canvas to work with there, and I don't fancy going bald to make more room." His mind turns to Mary Keay, and that just makes him think of Gerry. And Agnes. Gertrude. Tim. Sasha. Martin...

Jon takes a breath and closes his eyes, mentally steadying himself.

"For tonight, I, er... I'll wear long sleeves, I think. Don't tell Wolfe. Or Amelia. Please? They don't need to see this."

Chris takes Jon’s hand to press kisses to his fingers while he listens and shakes his head by the end.

“I won’t. There are likely to be very few secrets between us as we go forward, both by necessity and proximity…I’ll keep whatever ones you ask that are in my power.”

His next kiss falls to Jon’s palm which he then presses it to his still splotchy cheek.

“Be kind to your paranoias the next while, considering what we’ve been through -you the longest- they have their place and our understanding. But…also know I’m still intending to help you against yourself as needed, I don’t even-” his words catch briefly and he clears his throat to keep going. “I’ve nothing but you all to put my focus on now…you’re going to bask and suffer under my undivided attention.”

‘Be kind to your paranoias,’ he says. Jon huffs quietly, enjoying the brush of Chris’ lips. “You’re one of the only people to see my paranoia as a benefit, you know? Thank you, though, for keeping what secrets we still can. And… Before we head back out, did you, er… want to listen to the Statement of one of your people?

“It doesn’t feel… long. It’s all rather straightforward for what’s happening there.” He knows he’s probably asking for too much pain from the cleric, but that need to speak is still there. “And you don’t have to say yes. I won’t explode or anything.”

But he’ll be consumed by terribly curiosity, no doubt.

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