First Flight

[wolfehawke]

Adalwolfe Hawke's eye's snap open not to the metallic ceiling and dim artificial light of the Twin Roses but instead to a low burning sun. His mouth tastes like sand and his limbs feel heavy and cramped, as if he's been asleep for a very long time without moving. It puts him in mind of the weeks after his fight with the Arishok, confined to bed with little to do but sleep. Granted that's really all he could do for that first week, Anders somehow there every time he opened his eyes, even if it was only for a few moments. The others were there too sometimes, minus Isabela but including Fenris if his mind at the time hadn't conjured the ornery elf from nowhere, but Anders was a constant presence. Always mumbling a healing spell or just sitting. Once he'd caught the spirit healer asleep with his head near Wolfe's hand, careworn even in dreams. Adalwolfe had rested his palm against the side of his head and dozed once again.

He sits up, looking to each of his sides in turn, hoping that somehow Anders would be there at his side. He's not, of course. This isn't the drift fleet and Adalwolfe had put that together in the heavy, sand-covered moments after waking. His staff is here though, the enormous red spinel that comprises the Hawke's Key's focusing crystal glittering against the setting sun. It's reassuringly cold to the touch, confirming that it hadn't gone dormant in his long absence. Nearly a year by his count.

Or... not. No. That doesn't make sense if he's still here at the edge of the Western Approach. This is his meager campsite, one he'd put together at the height of the the sun's journey in order to conserve his energy and not have to walk under the infernal glare in armor and fur. He'd used his magic to surround the area with an awning of ice, a strange fixture in a desert but one that kept him cool and allowed him to rest. He'd dozed off, and then...

But he's back now, and the awning's melted away, so some time must have passed. Not a year, he surmises, otherwise his possessions would hardly still be here. Not only his staff but his pack too. Bedroll still laid out underneath him, rations, his father's journal, all of it a bit sandy as would be expected of desert travel but not buried or stolen as would be expected if he was gone for as long as he thought. Here too, though, is the pendant Anders had gifted him after he'd regained his memory in the fleet, a comforting weight against Adalwolfe's chest under his shirt. And here is Anders' feather that he'd stolen, one of three. Two he'd tied to the temporary staff he'd had crafted in the fleet but this one he'd tucked in his belt pouch, sentimental as he is. One simir feather with its iridescent sheen and hint of magical energy. A tiny bit of what Anders feels like to his senses. On his more fanciful days back in Kirkwall he'd considered dropping a large sum to replace the fur of his mantle with one made of the very same feathers but he'd never gotten around to that.

He doesn't have the luxury of mounting into freneticism at Anders' absence while he's alone and so he has to think logically. Yes, his love had been miraculously by his side in the fleet - whatever strange dream of the Fade that might have been or some otherwise fantastical out of body experience, he's not sure - but its entirely possible Anders is still there, separated from him by the entirety of the Void. It's also possible that this is part of his own hallucination that he's not certain he ever stopped having from his trip into the physical Fade. Ever since he second guesses when he lets himself think on it too long, wonders if everyone he meets isn't just a desire demon showing him something else he no longer can reach in the world of men. Somehow that seems less likely here, with sand inching its way into his boots as the wind picks up just a bit in the dying light of day.

The explanation he likes best is that Anders is just on his way. They'd been drawn from separate parts of Thedas, Anders still presumably safe in their little cottage until the letter Varric was to send immediately after Adamant. He'd have left at a different time, from a different place, and therefore would have been put back there if Hawke has any luck at all.

Sometimes he has to wonder about his luck. Being back at all isn't exactly a blessing.

With a grunt he finally gets to his feet, bracing himself with his staff as his joints click back to where they're supposed to be. The sun is barely a sliver on the horizon now and thus marks, if not the best time for traveling, at least a better one that in the fullness of day. Adalwolfe packs his few belongings and scans his surroundings for the direction of the road; it has been a year and he has to remember where he left it.

There's really nothing for it but to complete his journey to Weisshaupt. He'd been heading there before the strange journey and there isn't much of a choice but to press on, whether time has passed or not. Someone has to tell the Wardens what happened, it might as well be him.

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Morning sees him in greener surroundings, or at least soggier. As it turns out he hadn't been far from Nahashin Marshes, the outskirts of which play host to a small village of folk eeking out an existence where they can. The place is on stilts with wooden walkways connecting places people need to get to frequently and small boats for ferrying to less visited outskirts. Right in the middle is an inn. Someone probably thought they were being clever with naming it 'Frogswallop' but in what way Hawke couldn't begin to guess. He was just grateful to be out of the elements and have the chance for an ale and a bed that didn't fit in a roll on his back.

Even if its a lonely bed.

He's not recognizes when he slides his silver across the bar for room and board but he really didn't expect to be this far out from the Free Marches. He's notorious he knows, but the illustrations in Varric's book are symbolic rather than literal and so the chances of anyone knowing who he is on sight at slim. Still, he uses the name Garrett Amell to book his room, just in case. Its his little joke to himself, a nod to other versions of himself he's not even sure really existed. He would have used Marian but that would have gotten him weird looks.

He bides his time at the bar, putting off facing the prospect of once again going to sleep alone. He hates that. He'd rather take another run at the Bone Pit than sleep alone, but as the sun climbs higher and he starts to doze in his cups, he's not sure he can put it off much longer.